Saturday, Oct. 06, 2007 - 7:40
I love Ethan, and it scares the crap out of me because I actully think I could fuck him, and I don't want to actually fuck anyone, I mean really, what's wrong with me? It's fucking Ethan and if I gave it a month I wouldn't even remember all this crap, because a month is about how long it will be before I even hear from him again,but there it is, and here I am, because it was only three days ago and I'm stuck. I dream this stupid episodes that couldn't ever take place, because damnit we're talking about Ethan here, but I had to let it out, it had to be written in public. I want to get dirty and Ethan is as dirty as I know and I want him, I want to taste him, I want to be used by him, I want to let go and have it all.
It's a never, and I'm glad for that too.
